Devaneios de uma desvairada

I'll start this from as earlier as I can remember. As honest as my memory allows me. As detailed as I can cope with. I'll try to continue and not give up, or into fear. I'm here. Nobody ever told me I needed a partner, I remember however, as a kid, thinking that the most beautiful human interaction was love. Being seen and entertained by someone other than yourself came across as the most outstanding exchange two beings could have or do for each other and themselves. I came to that conclusion myself, through my own eyes, as a very solitary child that truly watched and observed her surroundings. I valued when, by putting some thought into which checker to move next on our checkers game, my grandfather gave me his time, thoughts, and attention. I have always understood when people truly wanted to  exchange therefore always struggled with shallow quick interactions. They never translated the magic I could see in people, how interesting and wonderful they could be. So never ful